As memories waft to my consciousness, I remember when I made this post on the reason I picked psychology. Now, I am in my final year and the weight of that decision (total read that post, if you have not) has settled in completely, coupled with others.
I came into this year/ semester with the intention of soaking up every bit and enjoying it, keeping up with the energy January welcomed me with and living my best life. I hated how people unconsciously treated the last phase of something with the same energy exerted to the month of December. The last phase of a thing becomes a countdown to the next, which is a good thing. However, there is a lot in December that we do not get to explore because we are just focused on using it as a bridge to the New Year.
I knew I did not want to have that kind of relationship with my final year. Yes, I understood that it served as a bridge to the next phase but I also knew it was an experience of its own.
In reality, I did not always stick to the plan. I have been clouded by uncertainties that just made wish the phase was over; I have mumbled several ‘I can’t wait to’, struggled to get through some days. I have also enjoyed better days. I think one thing that this final phase comes with is the true realization that everything will end soon, it makes you question your decisions, actions and makes me reflect.
I noticed that my final year attached a string where I lacked motivation for other things. With my knowledge of psychology, I understand that motivation is the energizing force behind an action and could be intrinsic or extrinsic. Most of the things I was doing outside school can be attributed to intrinsic motivation, even after a point, I began to question everything I was involved in, impostor syndrome flashed its ugly teeth at me. Every other thing I was involved in (my creative side) became more difficult. It was a chore posting on Instagram, writing reviews and blogging. This explains my absence here and other spaces. I am better now, I don’t really know what changed but I am grateful to God for always being constant through changing seasons.
I have a semester left; there are loads of activities in the last semester of final year. I want to document it and I hope I do by God’s grace. There was a point that I felt I was always going on about being in university, final year and all. I came to the realization that, even though millions have been in final year or graduated from the university, this is my own story, MY JOURNEY. I have benefited from other people sharing their stories, I have been inspired, found a common ground or generally appreciated their transparency. Maybe in a tiny way, I could reflect this too.
I am sending love and strength to everyone in their final phase of school, project, training, whatever it might be. You are capable of finishing strong, whole and with a sound mind. You will thrive. Also, for other in various levels in the university or life stages: keep doing and enjoy every moment.
Faithful is he that calleth you, who also will do it.- 1 Thessalonians 5:24
Places I have been to: I visited to Olumo rock in May (more of a class trip) but did not write about it. Honestly, I was just over it then. It was a beautiful experience for me.
My friend also celebrated her birthday at Unusual Cuisine, Restaurant. It is located at 8D Layi Yusuf Street, Lekki Phase I, Lagos. It is a beautiful space and also relatively affordable. You can read full review of other places I have been to here.
Currently reading: The Fishermen by Chigozie Obioma.
Currently obsessed with: Skincare and skincare routine.
Do have a great weekend.